Self Gratification

[Ponyup]

No it's not cheating. However, if I'm ready, willing & available he better be doing me & not miss rosie palms. However, if for some reason I am not available I would rather that than him getting it from someone else.

There have been times in the past where I really needed to get off & he wasn't in the mood or whatever & I would of totally manually stimulated myself if I wasn't terrified to do so. I don't know why, but I've never been able to take care of myself, I really wish I could, but I get really self-conscious.