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[AngieDoogles]

Judy, I'm so sorry you are feeling down right now. We are here for you ANYTIME you ever need to vent.

It just breaks my heart to hear that you are feeling so sad, but remember how many wonderful things you have in your life. You have two adorable little furbabies, you are independent, caring, compassionate, you are active, beautiful, strong, healthy. You have a lot of things to be thankful for, as we all do, sometimes it's just hard to find them and focus on those things instead of the negatives.

Your daughter is really missing out on a lot by not talking to you. You are a wonderful, amazing person and I'm sure she'd be so much happier if she would just stand up to her husband and let you in her life. I will continue to pray that this happens.

Remember, we are here for you anytime you're feeling down. *hugs*

[Lindsey]

Judy, I'm glad you got all your feelings out... sometimes just writing it all out or telling someone is half the weight. Your daughter is an adult, she can make her own decisions. I know it must tear you apart, but hopefully she will realize soon that she only gets one mother, and people don't live forever.
You're a wonderful person, and to tell you the truth, I look up to you! I feel that you're such a strong woman, and you know what you want, and you go for it. You have gotten out of bad relationships and you're okay with being single. I'm usually asked by older women "Do you have a boyfriend? When are you getting married?" As a single(ish) woman, I have a lot of respect for other woman who are comfortable enough with themselves to not NEED a man. I understand being lonely, and I hope you can find a companion who will fill an empty spot in your life. Until then, you have your adorable furbabies and all the women here who love you!

[judy]

Thanks for your wonderful support, and especially your prayers. I need to find my way through the heartbreak to the happiness. It's like a wall I've come up against and don't know how to pass through to the other side.

I'm not saying it won't always hurt, but hurt doesn't have to negate happiness.

(MS is a terrible disease, and I don't ever expect to feel okay about that. That just sucks for her! That's a whole different issue though).

[Tink]

Judy, I have really missed you on the site. While I love the younger ladies here, for me it's such a treat to have women more my own age to talk with! I spent years working on a parenting site so most of the online friends I made are in their 20's and 30's and at totally different stages of life than I am. Finding you, Janet, and DianaB posting here has meant so much to me! I just wish we all lived close enough to actually get together and visit in person. I know I'd have a ball.

I used to be on anti-depressants and still struggled to enjoy my life. So I can relate to where you're at. It's a lonely cold place that no one should have to be in. What helped me was to finally take control of my own life. I pray you can do the same.
The Serenity prayer helped me...
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, (your daughter being married to an abusive butthead certainly fits in this category)
the courage to change the things I can, (If you want a partner, by all means go out and find one! You're beautiful, loving, fun and smart! Any man would be lucky to find you!)
and the wisdom to know the difference. (Which I trust you already have)
Even if you're not a "religious" person, there is wisdom to be found in it.

What did you enjoy doing prior to having kids and responsibilities? Any hobby, or causes you'd like to return to? I know my going back into breeding dogs has really increased my daily smiles. I bet there's something you'd enjoy too that you gave up due to lack of time and freedom that you could enjoy again.

If you want to look for a partner, go to the places you'd like one to go to WITH you... and hopefully he will be there alone wishing he had someone to share the experience with too. Don't discount a younger man... I dare say you could keep up with one just fine and he'd be at your side longer than if you choose someone older.

You SO deserve to be happy. The hard part is getting off your butt and out the door to make it happen. HUGS

[judy]

Dear Tink,

Thanks so much. I really love our young women too, but we do share a certain wisdom and life experience....No offense to the younger women - you bring your youthful energy and hope.

Great words to think about - I do have trouble accepting her husband ("Swamp Thing" is my personal nickname for him).

I'm going to give some serious thought to what I used to enjoy. I know being creative is up there, taking classes, and I like yoga and meditation.

The man - yes, younger is what I need. I'm not talking about too young, but a man my own age is just too damn old!

Now, as far as getting my butt out the door..that's a a very good idea! I've been waiting until I'm ready. No, no, do it now!

Thank you my dear friend,

Judy

[Gina]

Judy,

I have not been on much myself lately just busy working. What is nice about this forum is that everyone can vent and express their anger and their happiness. We are a diversed group which make it interesting. We can offer the young ones advice from our experience from growing been there and done that ,and they in turn can offer us the new way of thinking of todays generation. So it is a great mix.

To address your first concern, you are only 60 and your a pretty woman who does not look her age. You should be out there dating, I don't mean the bar scene I am sure that along with us all growing up in NYC you did that. If it is your thing so be it, but I know a lot of women who go on match.com , another one is plenty of fish.com.. yeah what a name lol. They have met wonderful men on these websites. This is the new era of meeting people via the internet, along with caution that should be no problem. Whether you want to remarry or not should not be an issue right now you need a friend to take you to dinner and wine and dine you. We all like to be pampered me to...lol I also have friends who date younger men, my friends are my age 50 and date 40 yrs old. Age is a preference, 60 is the new 50 and you should date men regardless of age factor. If they treat you well that is all that matters, Be he 40 or 70 lol.. thats just my opinion. If the internet is not your thing, go to barnes and noble, or anywhere where they have parents without partners . I have been out of Bklyn awhile now so I don't know where people go to meet others. But get out there and DATE...

As far as your daughter, I don't know why she is treating you this way. You are her mother and the only one she will ever have. I think this creep of a husband is definitely controlling her, she is in a way in his mercy. She should let you into her life for your retired and I know that you would be by her side helping her and helping taking care of your grandkids. I don't know if its right thing to do but I would try to contact his mother or family and ask why her son is shutting you out of your daughter's and grandchildren's lives. Do you think its him?, intercepting the calls , maybe she needs to get help and you have to find a way to get her out of there. I am just trying to understand this. Judy I have come to believe is that whatever goes around comes around. They have children, not to wish bad things on them..

Judy I guess you have tried and there is nothing much you can do. Yes it is awful that your only child is acting this way. She knows your there and there is nothing more you can do at this point...It will hurt yes, but hopefuly it will get resolved....

Sorry for the long post pm me anytime... Good luck! and start mingling lol

[Forgivenmom5]

Judy I am still praying for a miracle in your relationship with your daughter but if that doesn't happen you know you have done your best.

[judy]

Originally Posted by Gina

Judy,

I have not been on much myself lately just busy working. What is nice about this forum is that everyone can vent and express their anger and their happiness. We are a diversed group which make it interesting. We can offer the young ones advice from our experience from growing been there and done that ,and they in turn can offer us the new way of thinking of todays generation. So it is a great mix.

To address your first concern, you are only 60 and your a pretty woman who does not look her age. You should be out there dating, I don't mean the bar scene I am sure that along with us all growing up in NYC you did that. If it is your thing so be it, but I know a lot of women who go on match.com , another one is plenty of fish.com.. yeah what a name lol. They have met wonderful men on these websites. This is the new era of meeting people via the internet, along with caution that should be no problem. Whether you want to remarry or not should not be an issue right now you need a friend to take you to dinner and wine and dine you. We all like to be pampered me to...lol I also have friends who date younger men, my friends are my age 50 and date 40 yrs old. Age is a preference, 60 is the new 50 and you should date men regardless of age factor. If they treat you well that is all that matters, Be he 40 or 70 lol.. thats just my opinion. If the internet is not your thing, go to barnes and noble, or anywhere where they have parents without partners . I have been out of Bklyn awhile now so I don't know where people go to meet others. But get out there and DATE...

As far as your daughter, I don't know why she is treating you this way. You are her mother and the only one she will ever have. I think this creep of a husband is definitely controlling her, she is in a way in his mercy. She should let you into her life for your retired and I know that you would be by her side helping her and helping taking care of your grandkids. I don't know if its right thing to do but I would try to contact his mother or family and ask why her son is shutting you out of your daughter's and grandchildren's lives. Do you think its him?, intercepting the calls , maybe she needs to get help and you have to find a way to get her out of there. I am just trying to understand this. Judy I have come to believe is that whatever goes around comes around. They have children, not to wish bad things on them..

Judy I guess you have tried and there is nothing much you can do. Yes it is awful that your only child is acting this way. She knows your there and there is nothing more you can do at this point...It will hurt yes, but hopefuly it will get resolved....

Sorry for the long post pm me anytime... Good luck! and start mingling lol

Dear Gina,

Thanks for the compliments. That's always nice! And no bars for this Brooklyn girl! I like the "plenty of fish.com" name. I've hear Match.com sucks, but I only need one guy. I like monogamous relationships best. I never had the energy to put up with more than one guy at a time.

As far as my daughter, yes - I have tried pretty much everything. Calling his parents is a waste of time. They're total enablers - he's an alcoholic - and at this point probably hate me too. Their son disgusts me, so I guess I can't blame them. They're not going to see him for who he really is.

No - the ball is now in my daughter's court. It's all up to her. The very sad thing for her is that she is very sick and does need him, or thinks she does. She has 3 young children and MS. She's stuck between a rock and a hard place too. I'm very strong. What would I do in her shoes? I'd like to think that after some time, I'd gather up my strength, overcome my fears, and put my foot down to my husband. The truth is, he needs her as much as she needs him. She gives his lazy, loser lifestyle legitimacy. He can feel like a man.

Well...we can write a book about him, but he's really not worth the energy.
Truthfully, right now, neither is she, except for prayers for her health and the children. I need my energy to get on with my life or I'll find that I spent it all waiting fir her to come around.


Judy