I think it's over.

[Lindsey]

He emailed me.
He asked what's the deal with us and I told him "I told you want I want. That's your decision." And it turned into a big fight basically me defending why I want to move and him saying that's stupid. He said he has friends and family here and he won't leave just to go to "the yukon or the maritimes or whatever your dream place is" I told him I'm not happy here and I don't want to settle and be sitting here 10 or 20 or 30 years down the road wondering what else I could have done with my life. He said "whatever". I asked him to understand where I'm coming from, I'm not happy here and I need to go places and see things. He said it would be stupid for him to get up and leave everything he's ever known. I said "then it looks like our lives are taking different paths."
and that's it. no reply.

[katepoet]

I found a man who was willing to follow me anywhere. Life intervened and we haven't gone very far but I know the deal still holds, 26 years later. He will always back me up and put me first. I have to recommend it. Of course, it's a two-way street, but I am the one with the career and travel plans - I really expected to spend a lot of time in Africa and South America. Still might get to do some of that, just differently than I planned originally. But I would not have allowed myself to get serious with someone who didn't put me first. We still took care of his mom, my dad, whatever we needed to do, but we did it together, making decisions that were best for the two of us, and eventually, our son. (and don't forget, the dog!)

[rivermom]

Lindsey - By all you wrote it sorta seems you've already shown yourself where this relationship is going. I think you have your answers to realize which road you need to take girl.

My heart goes out to you. I admire you for realizing what you want out of your life. Many people wander forever and have not a clue. You are one step ahead of the game!!

[Lindsey]

I got home after work yesterday and packed up all his stuff and took it to his house and he wanted to talk. I left it all in my car. He made me smile and he said he didn't want to lose me and we should still have our date night. We went to red lobster and we watched the bee movie, then he came back to my house. We went straight to bed. This morning we fought again about the dog. I told him "leave" and he got up and started getting dressed and I said "I'll get your stuff from my car" and he said "whatever" and ran out the door before I could even put jeans on. I got outside and he was already ripping down the street. I got in my car and followed him home. I got to his house and he wouldn't look at me as he was walking inside. I threw his bag in front of his front steps and went back to my car. He picked it up and started walking towards the dumpster. Every memory of us is in there. Everything he ever bought for me. I hurt so bad. My heart feels like it was just torn out. I can't breathe.

[katepoet]

So hard - but look at him - he got you to pack, move and carry all his crap home to him. He let you wait on him. He talked you into romance and sex without committing to your well-being. He was not worth you, Lindsey, really and truly. You are a strong, vibrant woman - you will go through this grieving the loss and come to the other end full of joy in the knowledge that you are great without him. Life will be better, you'll see. Don't ever let him bother you again.

Now, what are you going to do to get through this weekend? What can you do for yourself to help you to cope?

[Lindsey]

He told me to just throw it all out myself. I couldn't do it. So I took it to him and he threw it out right in front of me.
My roommate and I are putting up Christmas lights outside today because it's really nice out. That might take my mind off of things.
Tonight I had plans with one of my best guy friends that I haven't seen in months, I really hope he doesn't cancel on me. For the rest of the weekend, I don't know. I might just sit here and cuddle with Layla to feel better. I think it'll be worse at work on Tuesday (long weekend here) because I'm running out of stuff to do, so I usually just emailed him all day.

[rivermom]

Originally Posted by Lindsey

He told me to just throw it all out myself. I couldn't do it. So I took it to him and he threw it out right in front of me.
My roommate and I are putting up Christmas lights outside today because it's really nice out. That might take my mind off of things.
Tonight I had plans with one of my best guy friends that I haven't seen in months, I really hope he doesn't cancel on me. For the rest of the weekend, I don't know. I might just sit here and cuddle with Layla to feel better. I think it'll be worse at work on Tuesday (long weekend here) because I'm running out of stuff to do, so I usually just emailed him all day.

Christmas lights are fun!! Well girl....time to get yourself a new man.