I'm so sad.

Oh wow Kat, I'm new to this forum but I'm so sorry for your loss and for what you have had to go through. I couldn't even imagine. Hold onto your babies tightly, because they will help you get through this. They need you so much, as you're all they have. They can help be your light at the end of the tunnel. I think talking to someone is a good idea. Even if just to get your thoughts out so you're not bottling them up. *hugs*