I am so tired.

[katcarasella]

Originally Posted by Forgivenmom5

I am so sorry Kat. You have had a really tough year and anyone would have trouble coping. I really had to push myself to go on sometimes during treatment. Pamper yourself for a while try to think of your wonderful daughters and grandchildren that love you and know that we love you very much here too. Let us know if we can help in any way.

Thank You Debbie, and please don't worry about me, How are you feeling today sweetie?

[Forgivenmom5]

Originally Posted by katcarasella

Thank You Debbie, and please don't worry about me, How are you feeling today sweetie?

I am tired today. Sat in the doctor's office for 2 hours yesterday and then had to go by work to check on insurance. Tuesday night I got to go see my ten year old's ballet performance. She had to be there early so Angie and Brendon took her and then Brendon came back to get me so I didn't have to sit so long. It was just all a little much after not doing anything.

I will always worry about you. We love you and you are a great friend. Don't think bad of yourself. I don't think anyone could go through what you have and not be upset and sad. It takes a lot of time to heal.

[deb22]

I'm sorry Kat. I often worry about you when I can't find you on here. But you can always find me if you need me.

[katcarasella]

Thank you Deb and Debbie.

[Dobie]

I'm sorry that you're feeling down.

This might be a good time for you to start planning the trip to Rhode Island to visit your friends in Warwick. A change of scenery might do you good.

[goofywife]

Kat, I am sorry you are feeling this way. I have to deal with people all day long. There are some days when I go home and say "I'm done". Then I go look at the bills and come back to reality. I go to work and look at my best friend and everything she is going through and count my blessings. Hang in there girl, hug the kids, fur and human. Pull your head out of the ho drums and go do something good for yourself.

I think you may need to add more to your life to fill the voids. Have you thought about reading for kids at the library or volunteering at church? Maybe at a pet rescue shelter (thats what my Mom has done since my Dad died 2 years ago).

[katcarasella]

Dobie and Michelle, you're right I have to pull myself out of my pity pot and do something to make a difference. Before Pete died I used to read to some blind Vets at the VA hospital, that always gave me such a feeling of joy to see them smile. I donate to the local pet rescue, but I know if I helped out at the shelter I'd end up adopting more than I could handle. It is a good idea though, Thanks.

[DianaB]

{{{{Kat}}}} The feeling of exhaustion and wanting to sleep is one of the signs of grieving. You've had some really big loses this year and you are going through the grieving process. It's a shame that we're not taught about grief and what to expect with it or even how to be a friend with someone who is grieving.

I had a miscarriage years ago and afterwards I thought that I was losing my mind. I kept trying to act like everything was alright but inside, I was falling apart. When people asked how I was doing I said alright but inside I was crying for help. It ended up that my MIL had a heart attack and we ended up in Wichita staying at the Ronald McDonald house. There I found a little booklet about grief and that was when I realized that that was what I was doing, grieving. I finally felt relief to know that what I was feeling was normal.

I encourage you to let us know how you're doing, not the sugar-coated version, but how you're REALLY doing. Continue to share about your life with Pete and anything else. I'm here for you no matter what and I'm only a phone call away. Also, you may want to check on some forums that are about grieving. Here's a site that I thought you might find helpful about grief. It has the process and symptoms of grief.

http://www.recover-from-grief.com/ef...reavement.html

[katcarasella]

Thank You Diana, I put that on my favorites. It answered quite a few of my recent concerns.


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If we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome"-

---Anne Bradstreet
(1612-1672)