I'm just so tired.....

[Blueyes]

I have a picture that says " Stress happens when your heart says NO and your mouth says OF COURSE, I'D BE GLAD TO"

Put the oxygen mask on YOURSELF first, ladies. Take a long, deep breath...then tell everybody to go jump in the lake

This stupid, burning Texas heat doesn't help, either

[Janet]

Diana's right Marilyn.....don't feel guilty for saying NO and wanting to take time for yourself.

[Marilyn]

Thank you all!! I know that life isn't supposed to be easy. If it was, we wouldn't yearn for something better. Christians are supposed to be happy people. We're supposed to cast our cares on Him for He cares for us. I know. I can quote scripture and verse, lots of them, and I've taught them to others. But it's still just hard sometimes. You all have been through this at times. It is helping to share with you all, and I do believe I can feel your prayers.

Sandy, I'm going to Houston tomorrow. I'd ask if you had time for lunch, but an hour wouldn't be nearly enough time, and I have to hurry back to work. There are some critical things happening tomorrow afternoon, so will probably grab a snack on the road. You have more to bear with your daughter and grandchildren there for so long than I do, but I too have thought of just getting away.

My husband told me yesterday that I'm not fun to be around right now. I told him I'd be happy, and he said not to do it for him, to do it for me. Just have to shift my attitude. I know it's all up to me to do what I know to do. Today has been a bit better. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day.

Oh, and someone mentioned the heat. I know that has to be part of the problem. It's not supposed to be like this in June/July. Generally we have about 3 weeks or so of this later in the summer. It's been really, really hot here lately. Heat index's of 110+. It's sooo draining, even with the ac on. In my job, I'm in and out of a hot truck.

Chin up!!! Gotta cheer up!!

[Tiramisu]

Happy Wednesday, Marilyn!

[Janet]

Marilyn....as you well know...sometimes we all go through a bit of depression. Maybe you should have a good check up with your family Dr. to rule out any problems with your health and then tell him how you're feeling. I hope you feel better and happier soon.

[Marilyn]

On thing that has been depressing me is my left hand. I knew something was wrong with it a couple of weeks after the surgery. I kept putting ice on it, but it's still swelling some and I can't bend my wrist like I should. Yesterday, I went to Houston for a followup checkup, and I do have swelling in the wrist joint. They called it edema. I have to take steroids for a week and get some physical therapy. Now that I know what's wrong, and we have a plan of action, I do feel better.

Also, hubby went with me yesterday, so we got to spend some time together and did a lot of talking. I do feel some better now. I had blood work an ekg and such at the end of May and checked out healthy, so I know it's just stress from a lot of things. Just trying to get things done and get through this. I just feel like there's never any time to just chill.

I'm trying to get everyone to go tubing on the river the first weekend in August, but I seem to be the only one excited about doing it, and that in itself is depressing. We always have so much fun, and I don't see why everyone else isn't excited at the idea. Oh, well, this too will pass.....

I feel like a big baby. Just have to get over this and move on!!!

[judy]

Have you thought about keeping a journal, Marilyn? Sometimes it is very helpful t write down your feelings.

I'm not a great believer in just "getting over it" for myself. I need to "go through it before I can get through it." I need to feel whatever I feel and work it all out.

I'm also a great believer in saying no. I do not allow stress in my life it possible.
Of course, when I was a young woman, I did as much as I could do in one day, and then began it all over again the next day. When I felt worn out though, all I got was feeling worn out. I didn't get kudos for all of my effort. A lot of what I did was for myself, and that felt great, but I cut back on doing so much for others.

I'm not selfish. I just take very good care of myself.